I booked therapy yesterday for today. It felt right when I booked it, and then feelings of ‘what have I done, what will I talk about’ came up.

In session today, I found out why the calling was so strong. Little Kate had something to say.

“He hurt me.”

“Why won’t anyone listen to me.”

Heartbreaking stuff and a surreal experience.

I told her “I believe you.”

She is safe with me. With me, she belongs.

I told her “There is nothing you could say or do that would make me love you any less. It will make me love you more.”

I feel a breakthrough coming. I must breakdown to breakthrough.

Lots of angry journalling came through tonight too. Potent, yet honest. I like it. I will keep channeling this energy into productive outlets.

Also I am considering doing the West Coast Trail. I am not sure if it is the right decision. I keep second guessing myself.

Lots of love,

Kate