Tag: we do recover
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Drowning in hopelessness and helplessness
The hopelessness and helplessness is overwhelming today. Confirmation that nothing I do has any impact. My life is chaos. Every time I try to take action to alleviate something from my psyche, more comes back. I know this is an emotional flashback from childhood. I know it. I don’t know whether to sit with it,… Read more
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Goodbye Darkness, my old friend
Last night was a different Ayahuasca experience than I have had previously. There was a lot of darkness. A golden orb opened up shortly after I drank the medicine. I wonder if it was my plant medicine. It was like a blocked drain or exhaust fan that does not work properly. I tried to think… Read more
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The aftermath of the worst conversation of my life
Yesterday I had the most difficult conversation in my Healing Career so far. It sucked. I didn’t want to do it. I knew I had to. The time was right. Just because I didn’t feel ready didn’t give me reason to chicken out. I told my parents a lot more details about the abuse I… Read more