I have been feeling every feeling all at once since my parents left. A single day in between their leaving and my departure to my next Ayahuasca “retreat”. Not enough time, but true to form in how I do anything in life, especially important events. This one is The Big One. I feel ill prepared. I only just remembered my passport, and tucked in with it where I keep it was my PR card. Totally forgot about that part. Whoops.

If I had the time to detail what has been going on in my head, you would see very clearly how hard I am on myself. That Inner Critic trying to keep me in life. Trying to keep me small and scared. It is less effective this time around, though still prominent.

Now for a restless sleep before my early morning flight. Won’t me much different to my usual night sleep.

Oh, and I got my Moon Time. Right on time instead of my hopeful ahead of schedule requests (re: pleads). This morning when I woke I was in a flurry about it. I was told to ‘trust the process’. This is incredibly hard for me. Something about lack of control.

Wish I had more time to update you.

Hope all is well in your world,

Lots of love,

Kate